It’s Been Awhile

I know it’s been awhile since I’ve posted to my blog. I’m always waiting for something “really important” to post or putting it off until the next day – which, as any procrastinator will tell you, never arrives. I apologize to my subscribers.

As I sit here waiting for news of Hurricane Sandy which seems destined to make a sharp left-hand turn right for my little home, I am filled with a sense of purpose:  I am vowing to myself and my readers to make more frequent posts. My blog really means a lot more to me than just a hobby to be engaged in only when it’s convenient. This blog is my way of keeping in touch with the wide world; it’s my chance to sharpen my writing skills; and my way of sharing myself and my thoughts and ideas and music with others. It doesn’t have to be pretty it just has to be me. Somehow, I am constantly forgetting this truth.

So, if and when I survive the approaching storm, look for a more serious effort on my part to keep up with my blog. Again…many apologies for my frequent neglect and I send wishes for safety and protection to all of you sharing the threat of this storm with me.

Can’t Buy Me Love

Please pardon me for waxing sarcastic and cynical, but we’re all allowed a little bit, aren’t we? You may want to prepare yourself for even more in the future…

Money can’t buy me love. Why not? It can buy me anything else I want. What’s so fucking special about love? Here’s some money…now love me dammit!  It turns out that even love can’t buy me love.  It doesn’t matter how much you give away, you still come up empty on the returns at the end of the day.

Oh well, fuck it. I don’t care anymore anyway. Who wants love anyway?  How many times am I going to use “anyway” in this paragraph? I don’t know. Anyway…

Gimme a cigarette.

Now, there’s love for you.

But, once again, only on my part.

I love my cigarettes, but they don’t really love me.

They just pretend.

But, really, they secretly want to kill me. I know this. And yet I continue to spend time with them.

That’s real love for you.

Heartshine

I recently suffered the loss of my little furry friend and companion with whom I had shared my life for the past 17 years. Needless to say, I was very sad and depressed to have lost my little cat-friend, Sissy. I have had and lost other cats in my life, but she was really someone special and the loss of her left a large hole in my life and in my heart.

I posted about my loss on Twitter as a simple expression of my grief. What I received back from people on Twitter – all virtual strangers who I will probably never have the privilege of meeting face-to-face in the “real world,” was nothing short of life and heart changing.

My Twitter friend, @SimonDevon75 sent me the following beautiful piece of prose that broke my heart all over again, while at the same time healing that broken heart:

What moves through us is a silence, a quiet sadness, a longing for one more day, one more word, one more touch, we may not understand why you left this earth so soon, or why you left before we were ready to say good-bye, but little by little, we begin to remember not just that you died, but that you lived. And that your life gave us memories too beautiful to forget.

Another Tweeter whom I have come to know over the past year, @Kilanalu, also sent me her love and support even though she, herself, had just suffered the loss of her brother.

This morning, I had a beautiful and life-changing exchange with a few other Twitter friends, some that I have known for awhile and some that I just met this morning through this exchange. My friends, @Atomic_Honey & @Atomic_Twlrbee, along with new friends, @Ravenval & @Marousia shared their special “garden” with me and introduced me to the word/concept of “Heartshine.”

Heartshine, to me, represents the wonderful and warm feeling that occurs in one’s heart when the outpouring of love from others is shared and received in one’s own heart. That is certainly the feeling that I experienced this morning. Sometimes, especially at times of loss, we can feel like life has lost its meaning and/or specialness. My experience of “Heartshine” this morning has given me a renewed sense of what life is really all about. In the end, the only thing that really matters is love – and love can only be expressed and experienced when there are others to share it with.

Thank you so much, my beautiful friends. I truly love you all.

Why I Love Follow Fridays on Twitter

Twitter Follow Friday #FF hashtag

Occasionally, I will see some criticism of the common practice of using the #FF, or “Follow Friday” hashtag on Twitter followed by a list of people that the Tweeter is encouraging others to follow. The main complaint about this practice is that it clutters up one’s Twitter timeline with basically useless and uninteresting content. This is not an entirely unfounded complaint as any Twitter user will see when perusing their timeline on any given Friday. However, I have looked past the “clutter” to the original intent and purpose of the Follow Friday tradition on Twitter and have come to love all of the little hashtags and lists of Twitter “handles.” Following are the main reasons why I have come to love Follow Fridays on Twitter:

  1. Sometimes, I have a really busy week and don’t get onto Twitter that often, if at all. This makes me feel a little guilty because I have neglected my Twitter friends. However, because #FF has become such a tradition, I NEVER miss it. This gives me an opportunity to let my followers and followees know that I am thinking about them even though I haven’t participated with them on Twitter for a few days.
  2. Another reason that I love Follow Fridays on Twitter is that the people that I follow and who follow me have some really interesting things to share and I really do want others to follow them so that others can enjoy the same benefits and interactions that I enjoy.
  3. Finally, I love Follow Fridays most of all, because, instead of seeing the hashtag clutter, I see other potential interesting people to follow. If someone that I enjoy following is suggesting that I follow these other Tweeters, I want to check them out to find out if I too would enjoy following them. In this way, I have connected with even more interesting and wonderful people on Twitter.

So, if you are annoyed by all of the Follow Friday hashtags on Twitter, or if you are wondering what it is all about, check them out. Follow some new people and suggest great people for others to follow. Join the community spirit and find out what Twitter is really all about!

Excellent Interview With Patti Smith

Just found this awesome interview with Patti Smith at http://www.oceanstar.com. They didn’t have any “share” buttons, so I just copied & pasted part of it here, with a link to the original site. If you’re a Patti Smith fan, you’ll love this interview.

“two sensual states of death linked by the constantly spinning present”

[from “Patti Answers,” The Patti Smith Fan Club Journal #5″, October 1977.]
DOES IT TAKE A LOT OF TIME AND THOUGHT TO WRITE LYRICS OR DO THEY COME INTO YOUR HEAD AT RANDOM?

…lyrics rush very fast in the studio or on stage only after months of struggling w/ a certain idea. there are exceptions. free money came very fast, like a miracle, from the eyes of a dog.

DID OR DO YOU EVER EXPERIENCE A HEAVY CASE OF ABYSMAL BLUES?

…yes. but suspecting this abyss is bottomless I have trained myself to suspend or climb out less be lost forever.

WHAT DO YOU EAT? HOW DO YOU STAY SO SKINNY?

…I eat what my body craves. mostly fish, couscous, and mint, w/ a weakness for donuts. skinny? constant movement both physically and mentally.

HOW DID YOU MEET ANDI OSTROWE?

…she sent me a letter which impressed me so I called her.

ARE YOU HAPPY?

…yes, and I struggle to stay so.

IF YOU HAD TO DEFINE YOURSELF IN ONE SENTENCE TO SOMEONE WHO HAS NEVER SEEN OR HEARD OF YOU, WHAT WOULD YOU SAY?

…it’s all in her smile.

HOW DO YOU INVEST YOUR MONEY?

…in dreams.

WHAT DOES YOUR MOTHER THINK OF YOUR ERRATIC BEHAVIOR?

…she doesn’t think. she watches over. mothers do not judge they love.[…]

The rest of the Patti Smith interview can be found here.